My First Miracle

Monday I went in for my pet scan. I had an appointment to go over results with the doctor on Tuesday morning. Here comes more waiting! Waiting for results from a scan is some of the worst anxiety I’ve ever experienced. Monday night I had an unusual sense of peace, when I went to bed I kept hearing “miraculous results”. As the appointment got closer I got more nervous. Every thought ran through my head. I tried to focus on the positive thoughts, easier said than done sometimes.

When the doctor walked into the office she had a big smile on her face. She said, “wait until you see these scans, it’s all gone except one small lymph node”! She sounded excited and surprised. When a doctor, who has been doing this for 12 plus years, sounds surprised, you know it’s a big deal!!! I literally did not sit the entire appointment, I was jumping up and down. She said she couldn’t stop looking at the scans because she was so shocked. The doctors final words about the scan were “this is dramatic!”

I had just had a cat scan done 3 weeks ago, the cancer was shrinking but it was still very much there. My doctor told me then that that was the most shrinking we would likely see! She said after this they just look for stability. STABILITY is not enough for me! God is much bigger than stability!!! I knew I was meant for more, but at the same time it’s still hard not to give into the fear.

In a previous blog I wrote about my appointment last week in NY, when the Doctor at Sloan Kettering, who specializes in my mutation, said this kind of cancer doesn’t go away! And now it’s almost all gone!!! I am still just in awe of this literal miracle!

Don’t get me wrong it has been and still is a BATTLE! A battle that I will win! I am so thankful to God for giving me the gift of persistence and making me a fighter, I am so thankful to my doctor for being both compassionate AND aggressive, and I am so thankful to the many survivors who forged a path ahead of me to educate myself and others on the right nutrition to feed your body to help it heal.

I have never felt more excited and relieved in my life! Jesus has healed me!!! I will have chemo all week and we made the difficult decision to add two more rounds. So I have 7 sessions left. I’m tired, so so tired, my body is wearing down after each round of chemo. My veins are filled with scar tissue and chemo has started to burn. It sometimes takes them several pokes to find a good vein. My brain feels foggy, which gives me anxiety and I have very little energy. I miss my hair. But I will continue to fight, I know it is all worth it. And I know full remission is right around corner! 💪🏼👊🏼🙏🏼